8: And I know that it's a wonderful world, But I can't feel it right now

"I know that it's a wonderful world but I just can't feel it right now"

A line from the song, "Wonderful World".
I feel so damned wasted, frustrated, empty, and alone.
I don't want to feel this way.
Today, is 9/9/09. It's a once in a lifetime date.
Unusual. Some people say that it's a lucky date.
But definitely not for me.
I'm so bored today.
And the rain just gets on my nerve.
Today is a rainy day, and I think, when it rains,
I feel so emotional about things.
I'm weird, I know that!

But I still believe that someday, I'll be fine

"I thought I was doing well but I just want to cry now"

*P.S. just don't try to understand me, coz I can't understand myself either*