17: A letter to a young lady

Dear me,

Hi..I know that life isn't that fair. I know that you're going through something and you can't share it to other people. Your always like that, pretending to be happy even though you don't. You keep on smiling even though your heart is breaking. I haven't really see you get angry with other people. You always say your okay, nothing's wrong. I really hate it when you do that. I want you to be somebody who's bitchy enough to express what you really feel. You're always the crying shoulder of somebody, but did you ever realize that when you're crying no one lends a shoulder that you could cry on. Stop pretending that life is really okay, coz it's not. I know you're in pain but who's not?..We are all in pain as Dr.House would say. I just want you to realize that Life = happiness + sorrow. You can't be too happy nor say.

Many things had happened in your life. You go every trials in your life by yourself without seeking the help of other. You always think of the welfare of other people but for once, can't you think of yourself first. You always think that life would be better if you would help. I know that helping is fine but can't you think of yourself first. I know that I'm being selfish by saying things like this. But I want to wake you up and change the way you are. I really don't want you to change everything but I hope you change for the better. I'm always at your back. Remember that things would only be complicated if you let it be complicated. Life is a matter of choice. It's a choice to be happy and sad. But I want you to choose to be happy. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

I know you want to do something that would change your life forever. You want to make a difference. You want to feel worth it. I know someday you'll be somebody who's good enough to make a change.

Always remember that I'll be here for you.

Love,
me

kimi wo aishitsuzukeru