20: Love sick :(

"And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing...
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?"

Yeah..I'm pretty much tired of listening to some silly love songs that would make me feel miserable. Listening to love songs makes me feel ALONE. Alone in a sense that I'm not with someone, I'm not dating anyone, and I'm single for the longest time.I'm not complaining or
anything. I'm tired of seeing people holding hands while walking and I'm just walking alone. I'm tired of eating alone at the mall. I just want to know that there's someone who's gonna make my day complete. Someone who would make me smile even though I'm having a worst day. Someone who would appreciate me.

"Been running from this feeling for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need it
Pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it's just a lie"

I'm tired pretending that I'm okay and everything is completely fine. I just want to feel normal. Normal as in feeling happy and being in pain. I know that falling in love is happiness and pain but I think I could handle that. I know that in God's time, there's someone out there really meant for me. Just wait..wait and wait..There's no need to rush. (I'm just comforting myself..haha)


>>P.S. I'm emo right now..blame it on Asher Book. I'm listening to his song "Try". and I come up writing this blog..

"still I believe..I'm missing something real!"